Calculating: (adj) acting in a scheming and ruthlessly determined way.
Do me a favor.
Stop trying to outsmart me.
Yes–that would be the kindest thing you could do for me.
If you don’t like me, respect me, appreciate me or want to be around me, don’t attempt to use your calculating ways to make me look foolish
so you can have a good giggle with your real friends as you walk away.
I’m a human being.
I’m looking for a chance to be with people who will see my faults, mention them privately and then defend me in front of those who would try to destroy me for my weakness.
The American culture has become a great competition in trumping one another. I do not mean any disrespect to our President, but the phrase was alive before his administration, and it endures.
If your greatest need is to conquer me, then I surrender.
If you must prove you are my intellectual superior, then I nod to your diplomas.
If it’s your muscles that must be praised for their firmness and size, I will stand over here meekly and applaud.
Although I have tried to be a calculating person, the end result was always a Pyrrhic victory–I won without possessing anything in my hands. Yes–an empty feeling of vanquishing.
I’m not interested.
I’m not willing to be either the instigator nor the victim.
If you want to deal with me, come clean or don’t come at all. I can handle it. Can you?
If you have a need to be better than me, then feel free to pursue your path, but also be prepared for the end result of your ignoble effort.