Contaminate: (v) to make something impure
The first time I said a prayer my soul merged with God.
Then I went to prayer meetings. Now a sense of loss floods my heart every time I listen to over-exsggerated supplications.
The first time a woman kissed my lips and touched my face I thought I was going to melt like butter on a hot waffle.
Then came television, movies, and all sorts of insidious representations of romance, which make me sometimes wonder why in the hell we’re attracted to each other.
The first time I voted I believed I was accompanied to the polls by George Washington himself.
Now, through the disappointment of the Electoral College and the tainting of civil discourse, I would rather have a 24-hour stomach virus. (Well, maybe not.)
The first time I stood onstage and sang a song for an audience, and had chills go up and down my spine as I harmonized with my friends, I thought I had pierced the heavenly gates and joined the supernal chorus.
Now I feel perplexed at a musical cacophony that shouts, screams and contorts without ever touching the human heart.
I remember the first time for many beautiful things.
And then humanity tried to contaminate the simplicity, insisting that the complexity brought deeper meaning.
I have taken a brief season of my life to debug myself from the infection of religious fanaticism, entertainment porn, political grappling and music composed with a tin ear.
I feel good.
I feel simple.
I no longer feel contaminated.