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One of my largest portions of pride has always been a belief, contention and even, I suppose, reality that I “move really well for a big man.”
Whenever I ran across folks who questioned my size or my blubber, I always reminded them that I swam four times a week and even played tennis.
I was glad to be agile.
Actually, I worked hard at it. I have always been very fat, but also active. Honestly, my busy lifestyle and exercise didn’t do much to counteract my metabolism and overeating.
Time marches on. The obesity has remained and unfortunately, the agility has gradually vanished.
I have worn my knees out carrying around too much weight.
They were very brave for many years and now they are suing me for irreconcilable differences and requesting custody of my movement.
How do I feel about it? Because please understand–what we feel about things is very important. You may be able to achieve mind over matter but you will never achieve mind over emotions. When the brain and the feelings have a war, the mind is never able to overcome the onslaught of the attack brought on by the invasion of mercenary misgivings.
This is why I must deal with my feelings with regard to my agility. Four different sensations:
Embarrassed because I have gotten myself into this situation, where I am no longer agile.
Surprised that I am still around, doing a little kicking and screaming, considering how I have mistreated my joints and muscles.
Determined to do my best to generate greater possibilities.
And hopeful that with a combination of God’s grace and my effort, I can gain back some agility points.
The key lies in what order I allow these emotions to surface every day in my life. If they land in this order: (1) embarrassed, (2) surprised, (3) determined and (4) hopeful, it’s going to be a lousy day. But if I am able to get (1) surprised, (2) determined, (3) hopeful and (4)embarrassed in that order, I normally can see progress.
Yes, to be agile in my body demands that I first be agile in my emotions.
I’m on it.