Awkward: (adj) causing or feeling embarrassment or inconvenience.
I suppose I could take the popular position and insist that “I was born this way.” I would receive empathy and maybe even support from those who would agree with my assertion or share my dilemma.
I cannot remember a time in my life when I was not fat.
Yet I have to tell you that taking personal responsibility for it and realizing that even if my body has a predilection towards obesity, that I can discourage its wishes, is powerful.
The truth is, being fat is not only unhealthy, it’s a constant burden placed on your torso, lending itself to many an awkward situation.
- As a child I ran and played but not without wheezing.
- I wasn’t fast enough to get to first base on a hit called a single. For me to get to first base, I had to hit a double.
- I’ve never been comfortable with my clothes off.
- Generally speaking, I made sure that every place I was seated would be wide enough or hold my weight.
- When rejected by a girl, I needed to question whether it was because of my blabber or my blubber.
- Until I was twenty-five years old I never wore a pair of shorts in public. Much too awkward.
- Until I was forty years old, I refused to get into a swimming pool until everybody around had turned their heads and were involved in some other activity.
- And today, because I have led an active life, my knees are worn out, causing me to use a wheelchair to handle long distances.
I’ve never been able to sustain myself on my visuals only, but have had to rely on my emotions, spirit and mind to compensate for my body.
Now, before you go to weeping or preparing a lecture about my eating habits, let me tell you that I’ve already cried enough tears and pursued enough diets.
Now I try to eat as healthy as I possibly can, exercise to my capability and realize that awkward does not need to be a nasty situation.
Actually, awkward gives us enough vulnerability that people understand our humanity instead of resenting our perfection.
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